No boundaries

Hello guys! Wow sorry that I long time didn't update my blog... It's quite busy this month..busy preparing for church Christmas event, busy bout my grandma's health.. Busy my drum lesson and blahhhhhhh blahhhhhhh blahhhhhhh...lol haha

Wooooohoooo~my love Christmas is coming soon...so exiting.. Heheee:) I believe that everyone also love Christmas right..! It is really a awesome day in every end of the year.. Few days ago I went to lot 10, kl with my church friend to see the concert by FGA CYC.. Really a nice show.. And the VIP of that day is 汤小康. Dunno him? Nvm, google search.. :). Haha tomorrow or at night if I'm free I will upload the picture I took at the concert. Gotone guy damn handsome, name Shawn , he was 终极天团 星级男孩member.. I will uploa the picture so be more patient yea!! ;)

This few day I'm not really happy but not that sad.. Lol i dunno what am I saying.. ._________.
Ok I said out the truth..

I liked a guy when I was form one. I met him at scouts meeting which my friend point to me and said he looks nice.
He was same patrol with me, and at first I just observe him.. And slowly slowly.. Dunno started from when, when I saw him I will feel very very happy and my heart will speed up with no reason.

Then, I got his phone number, still remember that the minute I got his phone number, I gan jiong dao dunno like what.. But when I start SMS with him , he keep think that the other girl, the other girl is my best friend..

Yea..every time I SMS with him.. Our topic was that girl.. At first I dunno.. Just felt that can SMS with him whatever topic we chat also can.. But.. Every message his asked something all is bout that girl.. Then, I felt that he is interesting in that girl.. But I tot he just want to make friend with her.

He got my friend's msn.. They chat every night.. They have a lot topic to chat.. Just with her. With me.. Every time Is I find him to chat, and he just like hi. Lol end the conversation.. D: if not I'm sorry I'm busy now, chat later.. He will not be back anymore and the meaning of chat later is after a month or a year. Lol.. Serious.

One day.. I saw my phone, he send me a message.. When I saw the message I jumped dunno how high.. The first time he send me message first... The very very first time and it's the last time also.... He said i have something to tell you. I replied what ?and the message he replied me was really hurt .. He replied me: I'm sorry to tell youu that I wish you don't missunderstood the relationship between you and me. We are just friend.. Ok?? Friend yea.. Ok.. Just this few sentence.. The hurt is enough for me.. I admit that time when I saw the message , I cried. Why? I haven said that I like you and you and you refuse me first.. Still remember that you said you couple with a girl that you don't like. I ask why and you said you dunno how to refuse her so you accept the request.. Why I haven't said anything them you refuse me first? Why me? If can I really wish you answer me..

Then I get the news from my friend that he like my best friend.. That time, I have no idea what my face reaction is.. But i think it will be weird.. And bad? Say the truth I really jealous my friend.. But still happy because the person he like is my beat friend, a very good and nice girl.. I told myself.. I cannot cry..cannot be so selfish , Cannot jealous her.. She's your best friend and she is more better than you... Everything she did is better than you.. From that on, I tell my friend that I don't like him already.. But actually I just don't Wang let them know I'm still like that guy.. Let my friend don't feel stress.. But, 友达以上，恋人未满, this sentence can explain the relationship between him and my friend..

Till now, already 2 years... For other people this is quite long time to like a person without other people knowing.. It's so hard.. Yea it's really hard and suffer..this fee day.. I found that he got new target.. Congratulation his new target very pretty.. Think it's time for me to let go.. I need and I must forget him.. I should listen to my friend..let him go cause I will never get his heart..but I wish we're still friend.. I promise.. I will forget you before school reopen... I will try my best..他是第一个真正喜欢的，但也会是最后一个..


我受了重伤, 已不再对爱渴望.....遗憾的是没找到麻木的药方...